A gripping memoir by a former NZSAS commander on serving in Afghanistan over five deployments and operating at the edge of his limits.

In 2011, following the Taliban seige on Kabul's Intercontinental Hotel, an SAS soldier identified only as Serviceman J was awarded New Zealand's second highest military honour by showing outstanding gallantry in the face of danger. After twenty-two years in the New Zealand SAS, ex-commander Jamie Pennell is now ready to tell his story.

Having survived the famously tough SAS selection course and excelled during its brutal training, Jamie was sent on five deployments to Afghanistan and played a critical role in New Zealand's operations. From patrols across desert territories run by warlords to hostile fire and near-death combat, Serviceman J is a heart-stopping account of life inside one of the world's most elite military forces.